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I’m back!

April 9, 2009

I’ve been thinking a lot about religion and stuff and wanted to let everyone know that I’m back and will be writing with a vengence. Well maybe not a vengence. I really don’t know how to write all that good. But I’m no longer pissed at god because he pretty much lets me do what I want anyway. Eat drink and be merry that’s what I’m all about right now. Is anyone listening?

Is there such a thing as an agnostic?

February 25, 2008

I was talking to a friend of mine the other day and we were talking about me being an agnostic. First of all I have to say that I decided I was agnostic after reading an essay by Bertrand Russell. His argument was that an atheist would have to be able to prove that god doesn’t exist in order to call himself an atheist. Well I couldn’t prove that god doesn’t exist any more than I can prove that god does exist. So I decided that I was an agnostic.

Well along comes my friend and he put a different spin on it. He says that it doesn’t matter what you can prove or not prove because we believe in a lot of things that we can’t prove.  He says that what really shows what you believe is how you live your life because your beliefs about reality always show themselves in the decisions you make. According to him I’m an atheist because I live like there is no god. He says a thief can use an argument to prove god and may believe that god exists because of the argument, but if that person really believed in god then his life would look completely different.

You know what? It makes sense to me. There are many things that I can’t prove but I believe in. So what do you think? Is Bertrand Russell right or is my Christian friend right? Do our actions really expose what we really believe?

“Blessed are the merciful for they shall receive mercy” –I call B.S.!

January 19, 2008

So I’ve been reading the bible because I was challenged to do so. I started in Matthew and am in chapter 5 right now. I came across this snipet:

Blessed are the merciful,
      for they will be shown mercy

So I’m calling B.S. If the bible was written by god then I want him to show me some practical evidence that this is true. Especially in light of my last post.

I know merciful people and god just walks all over them. Seriously! Does this really line up with reality? Look at Billy Graham, Mother Theresa and other “saints” who have spent their whole life being merciful. What does it get them? God did not give them mercy. He spit in their face.

So where is the mercy?

My Charge Against God

January 8, 2008

This has been one of those months that has  knocked me off my ass. There is this guy named Aaron who has been a very good friend to me. He was my boss at a previous job and he always went out of his way to make sure that I had everything that I needed to be successful at work. More than that, he always showed a personal interest in my life and my well being. When he left, I was excited for him I also knew that I wouldn’t last long without his daily affirmations and consistently positive outlook on life.  I quit shortly after that. He was a good boss. The best that there is because he cared more about us as people than as cogs in a wheel.

I really came to respect him when I had a crisis in my life. I used to belong to a pretty big religious cult until I was disfellowshipped from my church, my friends and even my family. Basically that means that they believe that I crossed a line in my sin and decided that the best thing for me and for the purity of the assembly would be to never talk to me again. Neat huh? Well when all of this happened I didn’t want to talk to Aaron about anything. He would ask me how may weekend went and I would pretty much shrug him off. He is a religious guy himself and I didn’t need another person beating me over the head and telling me that I’m a sinner.

As it turns out I couldn’t hide it from him and ended up telling him what happened. He just listened and then said something that I had never heard a religious person say before. He said that we are all sinners and he included himself in this. Now this is a guy who I’ve never heard swear even if the situation called for swearing. He doesn’t fudge the truth, the doesn’t look at the hot girls at work when they are wearing low shirts  and he doesn’t  even take a little extra time on his breaks. What I’m trying to say is that he is the real deal. There are a lot of phony Christians. He is not one of them.  And here he is, a guy who I have never seen do anything wrong saying that he is a sinner. That is something we don’t say in my church. Even if you are a sinner, you don’t ever, ever admit to it. If you do admit that you have a dark heart then you are disfellowshipped. And that means you lose all of the relationships that are meaningful to you.

Anyway like I said at the beginning, this has been a bad month and the reason why is that here is this guy who obviously loves god,  lives a good life even though he wouldn’t say that and does what he can to help people who are hurting and who are outcasts. So you would think that he would live a blessed life and that god would reward him for being so faithful right? Wrong! God screwed him over with a painful disease and then topped it off with another disease that will probably end up with him in a wheel chair in a few years. Nice way to repay one of your finest advocates isn’t it?

The way I see it this is the best argument against the existence of god. If god exists wouldn’t you think that he would try to look after those who are looking after him? Wouldn’t he be like Aaron  who went out of his way to make sure that I was comfortable and provided all of the resources that I needed to be a good employee?  Look everybody knows that you reward your best workers. You are not obligated to reward slobs like me who live for themselves. But when you have an employee who lives for the job that he has been given and makes you look good you don’t  kick that employee in the ass and take away the resources that make him successful. You just don’t do that. I know that. Shouldn’t God know that? If my boss showed me that kind of respect don’t you think an all powerful and good god would have the courtesy to do the same?

Ha ha haaaaaaaaaaa!

January 8, 2008

I did it. I finally signed up for one of these blogs. I have no idea what to do next. Help! Anybody?